I've slept a lot so far today, purely because I don't feel like doing anything else. I've been trying to watch 'Friends' but even that isn't cheering me up. Apparently on the third or fourth day, people tend to get a bit emotional and I think that today is that day for me. It's hard to stay positive when my face hurts so much and the food I'm being given doesn't look or taste brilliant, as well as the fact that I feel so helpless and incapable of doing anything (partly to do with the fact that I've lost feeling in one half of my bottom lip, making eating a task and a half). I must keep reminding myself that this is short term pain for long term gain, I think it's the only way that I'll get through it.

During the day yesterday, my face became even more swollen than in that beautiful photo I posted. It may have gone down a bit today but it's hard to tell. I still look ridiculous, and will do for a while. I'm supposed to be flying home tomorrow but I can't even think about that right now- it feels like an impossible task. My cooling mask is constantly attached to my face to help ease the pain and swelling but I can't take it back with me tomorrow on the plane so I don't quite know how I'm going to manage that one yet. The swollen jaw/face is causing ear ache, headache and terrible neck ache for me, making it hard to stand up or keep my head up straight. I'm flustered and bored and uncomfortable, and wish I could be outside in Guernsey enjoying my 'long summer holidays'. Certainly doesn't feel like a summer holiday to me!

Sorry this blog is so negative today, but perhaps letting this out will help me a little. Short term pain for long term gain, short term pain for long term gain.

Namaste x